kinda been freaking out alot lately no fun in other news i got a haircut.  ¶ 3:02 PM

  ok so my internet hasnt been working so i havent posted anything in a while. im not happy with the last two additions to my story so im gonna rewrite them. i did find an apartment i think so thats good. ok thats all.  ¶ 6:27 AM

  im sitting in the dark for hours.

who knew pergitory would be so boring.

after a while i begin to hear voices. it's a soft murmer at first but soon i can make out what they are saying.

"dropping pulse 52 dropping..........gonna flatline"

"give me the paddles"

"clear"

when the voice yells clear there is a flash of light and then darkness again.

"nothing"

"clear"

again the flash of light its lingers a little this time. i see doctors working on a patient.

"still nothing"

"clear"

everything glows and im sucked out of the darkness and back into my body.

suicide attempt number one decidely failed.  ¶ 7:54 AM

  this needs to not happen http://entertainment.msn.com/news/article.aspx?news=131875
ok i like tim burton and johnny depp but this is a bad idea. the original is so perfect. why does hollywood remake good movies. remake the crappy ones and make them good that would be a little more productive wouldnt it.
if tim burton is such a fan boy why not plan 9 from outer space.
oh yeah mars attacks.  ¶ 7:38 AM

  ok this is the best thing ever http://www.rathergood.com/gaybar/  ¶ 2:39 PM

  ok that was a nice little hike. i took a couple of pictures. went climbing. fun fun fun.  ¶ 11:44 AM

  when i open my eyes im no longer in my car. everything is dark and i feel light headed.from the conner of my eye i see a dull glow. i turn and walk toward it. when i get closer i see a single light bulb hanging from a chain. below the light bulb is a large jar. the label reads.

"happieness take one"

i pick it up. the light bulb begins to glow brighter. when i open the jar the light glows even brighter. in the jar a thousands of little yellow pills. a smiley face is printed on each one. i pick one up and light becomes blinding. the heat from the bulb begins to make me sweat. the bulb burns brighter and brighter. the light is burning me. colors fade the bright white light washes over everything. i put the pill back in the bottle and seal the jar. as i do the light bulb explodes and once again everything is dark.  ¶ 8:58 AM

  i need a hair cut. i need food. a la peanut butter and jelly sandwich...... mmmmm stawberry.

ok well its jam really.

im off today im going hiking. so bye  ¶ 8:23 AM

  ok so there i am driving down the road. it's midnight the streets are empty and my radio is on. i am thinking about the future and the futility of life and blah blah, anyway i decide i want to die. and then i do. i turn off the radio, take my hands of the wheel, and press the accelarator. i watch as the car begins to slowly drifts to left.

this is taking longer than i thought.

finally the car begins to grate along the gaurd rail. sparks light up the night sky. this would almost be pleasent except for the deafening crash of metal on metal. soon the gaurd rail gives way and my car flys through the night air. i close my eyes and wait.  ¶ 8:06 PM

  ok ive had less than 4 hours sleep in 2 days thats 2 hours a night so im going to sleep tonight but tommarow im gonna write some things down here ok.
goodthings  ¶ 7:22 PM

  thank you juli  ¶ 4:42 AM

  first day back at work since vacation. how can there be social politics at a dicount grocery store. are human beings worth saving? sleepnow.

oh yeah. you should go here and download his music.

http://www.langhorneslim.com/  ¶ 7:06 PM

  ok so ive never been this tired in my life and i have to work in a hour. the party was a lot of akward conversation with people i dont know. i drank like 20 or 30 pepsis and got really really hyper. then i tried to go to sleep bu that didnt really work cause there was a party still on. any way i cant blink.  ¶ 9:29 AM

  so i just drove 40 minutes out of the way cause i thought i saw some i knew. it wasn't them but, at least i know how desperate i am for human contact. 40 minutes desperate.  ¶ 2:55 PM

  ok so now im really bummed out and listening to country music. i dont know why really. it probally has something to do with the lack of the fantastic in my life. i was expecting more. i probally watch too many movies. so...

maybe jesus will come back and kill us all.

or i could rob a back or run away.

is it still running away when you are 21.

no thats moving out.

i should listen to something thats not willie nelson.  ¶ 8:11 AM

  ok so here this is. its ill ramble and no one will read. ok so ive established what this is. good for me. ok so about me im a directionless kid from tn. i don't know what i wanna be or where i what to be but i know i dont wanna be here. oh yeah and i cant spell so if anyone does read this i know i cant spell so dont bother me. i like run on sentences too. ok thats enough

that said...
tommarow night there will be people playing bluegrass music at my house this is an yearly event its a nice chance too see some of my family and make akward conversation. should be fun.

my friend john lives in cleveland and just enjoyed being part of the biggest black out i think in history maybe. yeah wish i was there. i always miss the apocalypse. i was in an eathquake once. that was nice. ok im an ass.

i miss juli.

juli is the girl im dating long distance. brilliant of me. i think the distance is begining to get to her either that or my personality.

ok so i hate useally as a rule i hate anime. but i have fallen in love with flcl. it comes on adultswim. sometimes or did i think its over now. but anyway it great watch it i can't really explain it.

ok this enough writing for now my life isnt that exciting dont want to write every thing in one post.

so bye if you read this  ¶ 8:57 PM